Ups and Downs

Sorry I haven't written in a while. We had a pretty crazy week. Tuesday evening Jolianne had a fever of 104. Wednesday morning they decided to do a lumbar puncture to take spinal fluid to test for infection. They also took a few blood samples and a urine sample. They stopped her feeds and started her on a general antibiotic until they found out what was causing the fever. While they were trying to take blood she got sick and threw up three times. The last time she got sick there was a little blood. This was very concerning. Having two boys I have seen my share of scrapped knees, bloody noses, and scratches. I usually do pretty good assessing the problem and doing whatever it takes to get the "boo boo" taken care of. Nothing can prepare you for seeing your 3 week old daughter throw up blood. I tried my best to keep it together but I finally had to turn around and cry. The nurses said that she was fine, I just had a hard time believing it. Luckily Jeremy was there and he hugged me and told me everything would be ok.

Thursday they still held off on her feeding and decided that they needed to place a suction tube in her stomach to take out the extra air she had. They said that this could be causing her discomfort. She seemed very unhappy on Thursday. She would cry out every now and then and looked like she was in pain. Once again, nothing for me to do except for stare at her through the glass. I really feel very useless when I can't touch her or comfort her. I hurts in my sole. All I want to do is pick her up and cuddle and tell her that everything is ok, but that never seems to happen. Thursday evening they called to let us know that she had a urinary tract infection. We were very happy to hear that she didn't have an infection in her spinal fluid or her blood.

Friday she had a wonderful day. No fever, no getting sick, no painful look on her sweet little face. They let me hold her. They said that she needed to be cuddled a little bit after such a hard week. Truth be told, I needed to cuddle her also. It felt so good to have her snuggled in my arms. She slept like a baby!!!! Very peaceful and very happy.

Jeremy and I are on our way to see her now. Thank you so much to everyone for your prayers and you understanding. We are doing the best we can to juggle work and the boys and Jolianne. Sometimes it gets very overwhelming but we are able to make it through because we have such an amazing support system.

Love,

Crystal